Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Two Years

I had a bit of a shock this morning as I walked past my front-room window. I was running back into the house for one last thing before driving off to my morning CrossFit class.

I did a double take as I neared the door.

Oh my gosh!

I'm wearing spandex.

Please understand, I knew what I was putting on this morning.

I knew because every night I look at the workout for the next day and decide what pieces of my workout wear will give me the best chance of success.

Today we did a lot of lifting our legs- so I couldn't wear shorts or a skirt. I hate thinking that someone can see more of me than I want them to!

But we were also doing a lot of jumping, so I couldn't wear pants because I trip on them while I jump.

Skintight capris it is!

But when I walked past the window, I was suddenly aware of how far I have come.

Prior to starting CrossFit I had only dabbled in fitness. I wasn't opposed to it, I just didn't really work hard to make it a part of my life.

But from the very first affirmation I got from my coach of, "good work today" to learning to do pull ups (yes I can do them!), I have thrived on the duality of feeling accomplished and also feeling like there is always more to learn.

I have been doing CrossFit now for two years.

I can do a pull up.

I can't do a push up.

I have hit major milestones every couple of months.

I have also groaned and held back tears on many occasions as I am all too aware of my limitations.

But through all the ups and downs, I have discovered wonderful things about what I can do.

Today, my spandex reminded me that I indeed am capable of so much. I dreaded the workout I saw posted today, but I did it any way, and did it well.

That is what I love about CrossFit.

That I do it.

I do it even when it is hard.

Even when I complain about it.

Even when it is inconvenient, I do it.

I haven't been writing much, because most of what I think about is making dinner and making it to the gym. It doesn't exactly seem like trilling blog talk, but today, I realized how much a part of me this has become.

I'm just going to say it.

I love CrossFit.

...I wonder if I will become a CrossFit blogger? A little too over the top and into the cult? Perhaps. But I'm already in - I might as well make the most of it!